to be loved more than anyone else

2012-02-15T02:24:00.001+08:00

Sorry, not planning to blog much :x

Switzerland, GENEVA!

2012-02-02T01:15:00.004+08:00

DUBAIIIIII!!

JUMPY TIME.

MRT STATION LOOK LIKE THIS IN DUBAI!

Look. there are so many landmarks in dubai but the thing is, i kept seeing posters on most of the buildings!

" CALL 4xxxxxxxxxx!"

=_=

They are totally all EMPTY.

No one are interested.

Therefore?

Dubai are considered the richest country but no one is keen in staying there. LOL

LOOK. We didnt go. LOL

ROFL.

THE MOST BEAUTIFUL HOTEL VOTED IN THE WORLD.

MEEE!

DIDNT SKI.

2012-01-26T23:22:00.003+08:00

GONG XI FA CAI!

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR!

I had fun despite of spending only 2 nights over in kuching...

That was the first time i had to spend so short with my cousins :(

On the other hands, cousins are grown big enough.

They can drive in their own car to visit their friends' house and busy on phone sometimes..

Well, I felt a bit lonely.. but i have to know that i will be facing more of these when few years pass by.

Everyone will have their own family, friends and life.

Maybe even they felt the same about me too but we all cannot stop time right...

I just cannot interfere at all..

But i know that the REAL FACT is that we are all connected by blood!

And i'm glad they also feel the same! <3

COUSINS ROCKS

RELATIVES ROCKS

AND i know

PARENTS ROCKS THE MOST. :)

2012-01-10T01:30:00.002+08:00

OUTSIDE IS REAAAAAAALLLLLLY COLD!

its like 3 degrees?

Our face is freezing so much that i had to cover my own face!

But dont you all think i'm pretty?! HAHAHAHA

Me taking a shot under a warm shelter!

SO HANDSOME UH..

MY COOL PAPA!

But i dont think he need that stick even in 40 years later.

He's even healthier than me! XD

She want to be super old than anyone of us. :O

LOOK HOW UNGLAM MY BODY IS (above) LOL

2nd shot!

he's totally drunk, by just 2 glasses of wine!

And post with a red pot!

Who is more reddish?

And i drank a bit! :X

i could feel my ears burning up! :O

Geneva airport!

Geneva

Bridge!

Special trees!

SO NICE HOR?

Her own camwhore

AND ME HAHAHAHA

she started to imitate people. lol

I thought i was at Russia or smt.

2011-12-27T21:36:00.001+08:00

Hi everyone! I'm still in france and I will be back to singapore on saturday! Like always, it's been very fun here.They are so many great scenery here and it's sooo so cold!I'm using free wifi from a restaurant here.. Going to leave:(I can't use Internet often now because my hotel charge for Internet! :(Anyway, all those 5 homeworks I brought over here, not even a percent of them are completed! T.TI want to cry!!I have really really so much!!So many consultations to be done! SighI better treasure every moment here before I enter hell of suffering in Singapore! :/Today we all went to witness a building whereby mr bean visited!Remember the place he start walking super straight after looking at his map and compass? It was that square building he walk at! Thy building was a school!! Awesome and its realllllyyy cooollldddd! Happy holidays and ya, happy schooling -.- Oh yah, happy new year in advance!! :)

2011-12-16T00:14:00.003+08:00

HI

Im at the airport now!! HEHHH

CANT WAIT... CANT WAIT!

and i'm going to wait for 18 hours more to see the scenery of geneva!
WOOO HOOO!!

2011-12-13T00:13:00.003+08:00

So handsome. T_T

And its winter song!
I can listen to these when i go overseas!
Is there snow as well?

T_T
Before i could actually enjoy all these with a free mindset for the whole 2 weeks, i really need need to finish my projects to do so.

But i'm not rushing my projects because i really need to use creativity to be involved too!
Sigh.

ENJOY AND SUFFER.
wtheck.
cant i enjoy full time?
:(

Design is sucking all my time and freedom.
SIGH. i know i'm complaining but i think i will never stop complaining.
Thank god for this blog!

CAN I MARRY YUNHO? :(
i get to imagine so many things!
not impossible things that never happen but DAMN POSSIBLE happening WILL HAPPEN.
AND YET i know it wont happen at all. =_=

IVY, can you just accept your REALITY?
ALAMAKKKKK.

One of my dreams is to work with DBSK!
Design their concert stage, or design their cd album, or design for their MV or whatever so many possible stuffs i can use my design to get near them!

BUT, its SEOUL.
BUT, its NOT JUST DBSK IN KPOP
BUT, its NOT JUST DBSK FROM SM.
THERE'S HUNDREDS OF KPOP GROUPS.
=_+

2011-12-12T21:17:00.002+08:00

How am i gonna to survive for the rest of my life?

DESIGN?

T_T

2011-12-06T14:48:00.001+08:00

Sorry my face is really oily. :X

I cant elaborate on how i felt.

I also cant elaborate at what i did over there.

Super memorable.

My summary of 4th december!

Queued at 9am sharp!

Had great homecooked food!

Stood like 3metres away from the stage!

Was caught taking photos.

Learnt a lesson there.

Lose control at myself

Accept reality

Yunho is super handsome!!

2011-12-02T21:56:00.001+08:00

Tough life.

Like really.. =_=

2011-11-30T22:55:00.001+08:00

THE RESULTS OF THE WINNERS WHO CAN TAKE PHOTO WITH DBSK AT FANMEETING WILL RELEASED TOMORROW!

Haiz.

i keep telling myself that its okay to lose.

Its okay to lose!

Nevertheless, i'm still going to see them at the fanmeeting right?!

No high hope at all.

But first of all, i was very very thankful that many of my friends who helped me out!

Johnson, Jiayi, ChongDing, Janice, Rachel, Chanying, Xinfeng and Kor Teckkuan!

I'm totally blessed to have you all as a part of my life!

It doesnt matter if i lose, as least for now, i know who are there for me when i need. :)

So i felt that i already 'won', so i'm already very happy! xD

2011-11-30T22:47:00.001+08:00

STRESS BABY!

+_+

I want to get drunk instead of doing all these work.

btw, the reason why i took with a alcoholic bottle is because its one of my projects!

tml i have to show a redesign of this bottle, using the same name and logo of this brand.

Sigh.

2011-11-19T10:20:00.001+08:00

SAD LIFE RIGHT? :(

2011-11-19T10:11:00.001+08:00

okok, i'm vain la.

YTD WAS AWESOME AND SUCKY DAY.

Went to jurong point with my dear friends.

Amazing 2PM kpop group came to see thousands of fans, including us!

It was super cool.

I saw their faces.

DAMN HANDSOME!

Nichkhun!

WOW

TAECYEON!

wah

And others!

Something more exciting when come to their dinner.

SECRET

Being Deaf is so cool.

2011-11-16T17:42:00.001+08:00

MUM SO SHIOK.
Ask for her advices about my problem.
She immediately said something that clear my conscience.
HAHAHA.

THAT MAKE ME FEEL SO NICE ALR.

Why care for someone who doesn't even care about you except herself?
LOL

I shall have a clear mind for this week onwards now. xD

2011-11-16T16:53:00.001+08:00

MY HAMSTER!

Fisheye make her look so much ADORABLE!

Wah, have you guys thought of that?

Hamsters will never look old!

TOO KAWAII ALR

My magazine cut and paste!
Many things to improve on! my lecturer said it look pretty normal..LOL!

My brother and my dinner while parents are out for their nice dinner.

LOL. so now, who's happy and who's not?

hehe.

Brother's 22nd!

Guess who bought this? Not me, not my family, not my friends but.. :D

The first fisheye photo i took.

My NAME made many years back!

THE CAKE WAS REALLY AWESOME.

ITS DAMN EXPENSIVE!

FROM dunno wat japanese pantries!

First time tasting such a bday cake.

My family will not really buy this sia.

Dunno how much though.

NY STEAK.

GREAT TASTE.

FISHEYE SHOTS ARE SO AWESOME!

2011-11-07T22:05:00.001+08:00

EXTREMELY EXHAUSTED.
Yesterday i went to meet up with a group for this perfume project that we need to do on wednesday.
Today i went to meet up another group for that billabong project that is needed to hand in by wednesday.

And now i'm still doing the Billabong thing, and i havent done any single thing for Tuesday's work which is tomorrow.

I'm dead.

2011-11-06T03:10:00.002+08:00

HOPE IT SCARES YOU OFF.

2011-11-05T01:35:00.002+08:00

I JUST FEEL SO UNFAIR.
Does every lecturer from our class know that each of them give SO MUCH PROJECTS to US?

I strongly believe they EACH think they are the only module that give 2-3 projects each and thought other module ONLY give one DAMN module.

I FEEL LIKE SUING THE SCHOOL FOR GIVING US TOO MANY PROJECTS AT ONE GO.

You said it.
You said that if we feel unwell, see a doctor.
You said that if we are absent, get a mc.

But you never say that when come to finishing PROJECTS. You dont really care how much time we spend on stupid work despite of skipping meals, travelling forth and back, having other module projects.

You suck.

POLYTECHNIC IS FOR US TO ENJOY, NOT TO STARVE US TO DEATH!

GRR!

I SIMPLY HAVE SO MUCH TO DO.
BEFORE SAT EVENING, i need to illustrate and add colours of billabong
AS WELL AS giving out the THANK YOU cards.
then dinner? ( still considering which one to go or maybe not going at all)

SUNDAY i have to research, concept and sketch UNDER THE SAME F*ing MODULE where they give us magazine photojournalism which actually need 7 weeks to complete but along with iphone designs cover and packaging which was needed to complete in 2 weeks. WE DID LAST WEEK AND ANOTHER PROJECT IS ADDED LIKE SUDDENLY AFTER A SUBMISSION?

&*#!(*&$*#

ARE WE ROBOTS TO YOU?!

I WANT TO SUE THE SCHOOL!

2011-11-05T00:05:00.001+08:00

Feeling very depressed.
So many work to finish.
Sucks to hell.

Its like i have 8 hands like an octopus, but i cannot handle properly at one go, because i'm seeing 8 works at the same time!
Seriously, its like i'm thinking of ideas on other module while doing doing this module assignment.
CRAP, its so confusing.

You guys, don't talk to me.
When i feel like i'm getting further from friends, it feels so worse, and i try to get busy so that i won't get affected by any feelings that get into me.

JUST DONT TALK TO ME.

GIVE ME SOME TIME TO SETTLE ALL MY PROJECTS FIRST.
I am going to kill every single one with my own hands, right now.

2011-10-31T23:21:00.001+08:00

HAPPY HALLOWEEEEN DAY!! <3<3

HAHAHAHAHA XD

HOPE YOU ENJOYED THE POST!

2011-10-30T18:54:00.001+08:00

Looks like i have to even work double harder for my school work even though my workload have subsided by a bit since i will be stalking those korean celebrities from Running Man, MAMA event and Homin fan-meeting!!

3 full days is not a joke!

3 days i can do many things for work but since its once a lifetime korean celebrities coming to singapore, i shall take a bit of risk here!! X/

THUS, my family and i are going overseas 2 days before school ends in december, so i'm quite dead already since my projects deadlines are around that period and ALSO i CANNOT let my GPA drop anymore!!! :(

My gpa is dropping really bad as its like from very good to very bad.

3.48 > 3.38> 3.28!

T_T

I want my GPA back to 3.40 plus pleaseeeeeeee!

I want to get a degreee!!! :(

2011-10-30T18:42:00.004+08:00

RUNNING MAN IS COMING TO SINGAPORE!
CAN YOU BELIEVE IT?
As usual, we were all always looking forward to every new episodes of running man variety show every week and now we are getting news of the running man filming in singapore!

SINGAPORE!!
SOUNDS FAMILIAR?

SINGAPORE IS WHERE I STAYED ALL THESE YEARS AND I CAN SEE THEM FACE TO FACE INSTEAD OF TV!!!!

HOW AWESOME IS THAT?

P.S NOV AND DEC IS DAMN AWESOME MAN!

2011-10-29T23:45:00.003+08:00

Am i someone whom you can blame while you can have a good life and me having the opposite one?

Like dumping me all your problems then i go fix everything for you?

I admit last time i don't mind doing things like that

but i'm tired because people don't learn.

PLS.

BE MATURED.

WHEN YOU ARE NOT HAVING A GOOD FRIENDSHIP WITH YOUR FRIENDS AND YOU ARE ALREADY BLAMING THEM, THERE'S REALLY SOMETHING WRONG WITH YOU.

Even we friends can be wrong in some ways, but fix your problem first.

YOURS ARE SO WRONG!

2011-10-26T22:45:00.003+08:00

I CANT FOCUS.

:(((

Sucks, tomorrow will be like an amazing race.

Gonna to wear sneakers.

Felt so comfortable when i wore it ytd and today.

Hehe :D

I CANT WAIT FOR DBSK'S FAN MEETING COMING IN DEC!!

YUNHO OPPA, YOU ARE GOING TO SEE YOUR ANOTHER HALF!!

HAHA.

I'm not having a fever ah.

2011-10-23T21:58:00.004+08:00

I AM SO DEAD.

*running to sleep*

2011-10-23T16:14:00.001+08:00

I want my cousins back to singapore.

Nono, i want to go back to kuching!!

I'm not going back anytime soon, which is really sad! :(

Something great about having cousins ;they are like your siblings too!

They go play with you, hug you, share drink and food & joke around.

I remembered all the wonderful aunties and uncles at my dad's side!

My family had a meeting about something, so we cousins were so bored in the house.

My favourite uncle went out to buy 3 boxes of ice creams and cones for us to enjoy!

Then since my family have some young cousins, we big cousins went to help to serve icecream!

Even though this was something small, i feel the harmony in us is awesome.

We also stayover at cousins house without telling parents which house we are at!

They had to call every house where we are at! hahaha xD
I really had a lot of fun!

We just follow cousins around!

Aunties and Uncles also give us treats automatically if we are with them.

haiz.

A lot of things changed.

I heard there's a lot of happening in my family. Money Issues..

And then, one of my cousin got a shotgun marriage too.

2 of my cousins is now studying in australia.

Because of my school, i cant come over to kuching.

Even i have the 2 full months of holidays, i cant possibly use all my times oversea as well.

I need to rest in singapore, in my own home, on my own bed.

Should i skip one yr to work and rest before going uni?

Haiz, i don't even know whether i can even get in university at all! =_=

HAIZ!

I am having olevel english tomorrow, and i'm doing my project now!

GRR

Then i also heard before my year 3 semester starts, i have only about 3 weeks of holidays.

Semester Breaks only 3 weeks!!!

Term Break only 1 or 2 weeks!!

T___________T

Let me do things on my own now onwards.

I want my GPA to shot up to 3.70!!

GRRR

2011-10-22T13:56:00.002+08:00

Haiz. You crazy ivy.

What kind of attitude you have?!

2011-10-19T23:03:00.000+08:00

I WAS SO HAPPY THAT I CAN COME UP WITH THIS IDEA.

SIMPLE COVER BUT INSIDE IS AWESOME!

I just realize that i could make cards for my friends already!

It dun have to be just a single paper, unless its a not so close friend!

And i know you guys feel a bit unfair because i didnt make so nice for you when i'm so damn close to you and i made those cards for those whom i just made friends with last june during COR CAMP!

I feel challenged to make even better cards! hehehe

But those cards i made above.

I TOOK 2 days, to get it right!

=_=

But it was all worth it! i made 2 friends happy!

Haiyo, i still havent made kor a card.

I'm still making it! Look like i will be giving him next yr!

+_+

Nights world!!

2011-10-19T19:23:00.004+08:00

HI PEOPLE.

I KNOW IT HAD BEEN SO LONG THAT MY ENGLISH IS GETTING WORSE AND WORSE.

HOW ARE YOU?

I AM NOT FINE.

WHY?

BECAUSE SCHOOL WORK IS PIPING UP!!

REALLY.

YEAH

WOAH. SURE OR NOT. MAYBE MINE MORE THAN YOURS.

NO LOR. MINE WORSE OF ALL! I THINK THIS IS THE WORST!!!

LET ME SHOW YOU.

MONDAY I HAD 2 MODULES.

1st module, 2 projects

PACKAGING MATERIALS & TECHNOLOGIES.

1. A GRP OF 3, will have a lecture in class.

(Lecturer will give us notes each grp and we are to teach the class like lecturer) =_=

2. PROJECT START on the 24OCT AND DEADLINE on 30 JAN.

( Project is about creating a alcoholic beverage packaging where the box doesnt break as if it is drop from a height of 1m on the concrete floor. New Idea, not from any box in the market. Able to produce mass and ecologically friendly.)

For example like this below

2nd module, 2 project

MERCHANDISE & RETAIL SHOP SPACE DESIGN.

1. WINDOW DISPLAY

Pairs are formed randomly, and we are to make 3D box of the chosen brand.

And my partner and i got this, PARIS MIKI!

THE SPECTACLE SHOP!! :(

DEADLINE FOR PART 1: 24 OCT (NEXT MONDAY!!)

DEADLINE FOR PART 2: UNKNOWN.

For example like this below

2. BILLABONG ( OUTSIDE PROJECT BUT WILL BE GRADED!)

Groups are formed randomly also, and we are to design one of the new collection from billabong at the window display for men and the hotspot before december! :(

TUESDAY I GOT ONE MODULE

1st module, 2 projects

1. STUDIO PROJECT 4

PhotoJournal on someone's life.

I have to find someone who have a interesting background and are willingly to share smt that pe

ople never hear before and i have to change the story a bit if it is not interesting for readers to read.

( I STILL HAVENT FIND SOMEONE TO INTERVIEW!!!)

DEADLINE IN 7 WKS;

1NOV : Show pictures already

15NOV : illustrations of pages

29 NOV: must be ready for submission

2. IPHONE 4S COVER DESIGN (OUTSIDE PROJECT BUT WILL BE GRADED!!)

we are to design 3 covers of graphics, patterns or so forth.

SUBMISSION DATE: NEXT FRIDAY!!!! (28 OCT)

WEDNESDAY I GOT 2 MODULES

1st module, 1 project

USER INTERACTION & PACKAGE DESIGN

1.DIMSUM PACKAGING DESIGN. (OUTSIDE PROJECT BUT WILL BE GRADED!!)

SUBMISSION DATE: NEXT FRIDAY!!!! (28 OCT)

THIS DIMSUM PROJECT WAS INTRODUCED TO US TODAY AND I HAVE TO SUBMIT SKETCHES ALREADY BY TOMORROW!!!!!!!

SUCKS TO MAX

THURSDAY I GOT 1 MODULE

AND

FRIDAY I GOT 2 MODULES.

MORE AND MORE PROJECTS WILL COME..

I ALR HAVE THE TOTAL OF 7 PROJECTS IN 3 DAYS, INCLUDING THE 3 OUTSIDE PROJECTS!!) T_T

I'm sleepy. Shall sleep at 10pm today...

2011-10-16T14:14:00.001+08:00

From the magazine. XD

Outside the road..

PNGian schoolers.

The only korean restaurant in PNG.

THE ONLY KIMCHI.

Can you find me? :D

If you have seen the very first photo, this one i met was the real one!

Look! that size is even taller than me!

Maybe around 2.2m!

The tiny island where we went for snorkeling.

As you see this photo below, have you wonder how high is the hill is?

The photo sucks.

i couldnt take photo of whole thing!

It was really so dangerous for us to just stand there!

Look at the 2nd photo below after this!

The hill that is behind us(above). THAT HIGH LEH!

There was no fences or stairs!

No safety precautions or so forth!

But it was amazing!

I could see all the views from there.

Amazing moment i ever had!! :)

I think i did overboard.

2011-10-11T14:16:00.003+08:00

There's more! :D

2011-10-11T01:08:00.000+08:00

Life in PNG. They wore tribal clothing for National Day! I went png at the right time! Heh

2011-10-10T22:53:00.000+08:00

I don't want to feel the stress yet.

2011-10-06T23:13:00.002+08:00

Look & Watch.

i edited the video for awhile yesterday.

I was not bored over there at PNG, because there's many things around me!

The video wont be actually entertaining you much, but its much different from Singapore!

Just roughly let you know how its like! :D

I only show like one quarter of the place we live. :)

2011-10-04T23:50:00.002+08:00

My life in PNG.

I love the local people there who wore tribal clothing!

I love the adorable kids!

I love everything there!

and i love my dad for these!

I want to keep thanking god for creating all these.

There's so much i want to thank god for!!!

God, thank you so much!

2011-10-04T23:27:00.002+08:00

Adorable.

I love animals so much that i can live just for them. haha

I feel so confused in everything.

Dunno how to react in whatever people say.

Just dunno what to think and feel about.

=_=

i think its all due to the medicine i ate just now.

Today was my 2nd day of work.

and i'm sick!!

=_=

Nights ar..

2011-09-15T22:24:00.000+08:00

Rachel played the piano for quite a while for me to listen through skype and i rested my eyes while enjoying her song.

END UP I SLEPT.

and my hands on the keyboard press n for so long and even entered too!

Rachel witnessed it all and i was so embarrassed!

Ah..

I miss u all man.

BUT I MISS PNG MORE. :(

I want to spend more days here.....

2011-09-14T23:36:00.002+08:00

PAPUA NEW GUINEA PRIME MINISTER!

I didnt actually took this photo but because i helped my dad, and he ask me smt and i just nodded.

So i got this photo!

Went home and search for him.

He was inside leh!

Wah sia.

I didnt knew i meet so many ambassadors from different countries.

Even from Korea! I spoke Hello in korean and got embarrassed easily.

Alamak.

i kept thinking whether he got met any celebrity.

Kept thinking how to ask if he know JYJ since recently JYJ got awarded as Jeju ambassadors.

But i will look more like a crazy person. =_=

Anyway, i actually enjoyed awing at great people there.

Damn cool sia.

Nights ar..

2011-09-13T20:19:00.002+08:00

YO WAT'S UP.

I'm typing with my eyes closed.

See if i can do well or not.

*Open my eyes*

WAH, I'm such an expert?!

Okay, i'm being lame.

Today Papa and i reached PNG!

IT WAS REALLY SO EARLY! In singapore time, we actually reached 5plus!

I felt really excited like a tourist although i already went to PNG, around 5-6 times?

There were so many memories, that i couldnt describe.

PNG is a developing country where they dun have advanced technology yet except cars and phones and many etc.

They are worse than Vietam and Malaysia.

Anyway, we always have this compound area where we can live at home and work everyday.

Its strictly protected from the robbers etc.

I still get reminded of the story, of how my dad got pointed by a gun. :(

And how he got saved because he had money with him while his friends got beaten up as they didnt brought their money with them.

Haiz.

PNG is really a scary place. T_T

Anyway, what hurt me is his loneliness everyday.

I was observing every of his moves, as i was wondering how did he actually survive alone without families in malaysia and us.

A while ago, dad bring me to meet his friend's family for dinner.

I was more shy than usual as there's no one except dad to talk during dinner. So i was being quiet and all, and observe my dad more.

Usual talk etc.

That family gave my dad a branded box of mooncakes.

Just a box of 4 mooncakes make me so emotional even though i didnt show my weird face.

Guess why.

If i were not there, is dad going to eat all the mooncakes himself since he's always alone?

T_T

This is upsetting me a lot. He must suffered so much every night he go home with all those gifts.. in all these 20 years..

AISH.

Nights, world! :|

2011-09-10T19:44:00.002+08:00

Feeling so tired and weak.

Didn't felt so extremely weak since many months or few years ago.

Last night was really terrible moment for me.

Didn't knew this was happening to me all the sudden.

I think it was due to lack of water i drink and rest.

At the first place, i donated blood and walk around for quite a while at orchard.

Felt a bit dizzy sometimes, and i was thinking it will be fine later on, especially eating dinner later. Had fun with the girls even though i didnt talk much (due to my not-feeling-well condition) All i had to point at my arm where i had the blood donation if they ask whether i'm okay or not.

Then the boys were asking us if we would like to join them for the movie, The Cat.

I hesitate at first because i wanted to rest but then... because i miss chatting with the boys as well as the girls, and there will be at least 1 week without them.. so therefore i joined them.

Ate dinner. I really thought i will feel better after eating kidney and liver mee sua where they increase the blood after donation. However, when we were watching the movie, my stomach felt uneasy and i kept shivering the cold non-stop.

Even though the movie is scaring us with all the eyes of the cat, i kept shivering!! =_=

Then i left the cinema super quick without the group because i cant really stand the cold!!

About 15 minutes outside the cineleisure, i decided to take taxi home.

Called my home if anyone's home and i couldnt hear ANYTHING except the ringing sound!

I called twice, and i know someone answered after the ringing part, not i couldnt hear anything.

Then went to ask rachel to help me answer it. Haiyo..

Thanks rachel ar..

I think when i'm sick or smt, i cant hear well???

THEN GUESS WHAT.

When i board into the taxi, i immediately told the taxi driver to increase the aircon temperature. SUPER COLD! >_>

However, i was still shivering!

I squeeze myself into one corner and kept shaking, like some drugged people. =_____=

LOL. I still cant believe that i'm at this kind of state.

I even thought i will have a sudden death and how people will react if i really die.

( i know i sound silly..)

When i alighted from the cab, i felt so dizzy and my stomach hurts!

I walked very carefully, knowing i will vomit later.

I kept telling myself to control until the toilet bowl's destination..

When i reach the toilet bowl, i sat on the floor and face the toilet bowl.

Then I threw out everything! T_T

My sister even heard all the weird noises i had.

Paiseh...

I felt much better and watch tv for a little while.

Was looking for food to fill my weak stomach but no appetite.

Washed my face and was ready to sleep around 10pm?

Wore thick jacket and i squeeze myself into one corner.

Super cold even without aircon or fan.

I couldn't sleep in a wink at all until my parents came back around 11 and kept waking me up to check what happen. I kept ignoring them, saying i need some rest and i will be okay.

Mum touched my forehead and quickly took the ice and stuffs.

I cried secretly. =_= I dunno why i did though.

I thought of so many things when i was shivering.

I don't want my parents to worry so much just over my sickness and if they do, they will age more and fall sick! I just thought of just trying to be strong and all but end up i realized that i need to recover fast and don't let them worry for me again.

Mum brought me a very big ice forehead mask to cool down my fever. But i melt the whole ice within 20 minutes. Then she came back and checked my fever whether its' already subsided or not.

She said it was more hot than the boiling water. =_= and forced me to eat all sorts of medicines. I cried again but she didnt noticed cox my forehead was all wet with the ice thing.

After a while, she came back to check on me again around 2am. :(

She find out that i'm not getting any better and she went to change my clothes except undergarment. I wanted to move but i was like a sick person who cant move. Felt super weak... T_T

After that i felt so much better. I guess wearing very thick jacket with fever will make my body heat even worse.

Haiz.

This is the worse disaster i ever had last night.

2011-09-08T18:17:00.001+08:00

Aish.

what am i really doing.

Kinda of wasteful.

2011-09-08T16:51:00.002+08:00

LOL :D

Going to meet rachel and twl later at bedok!

Haiz, so farrrrrrrrrrrrr! :(

Donating blood tml!

Hopefully i wont feel any worse after that, especially on monday.

I'm flying off to dad's workplace.

Gonna to spend more time with dad and myself!

I need to have some soul-searching isnt it?

I shall exercise every morning!

THATS' MY GOAL when i reach there!

I MUST DO IT!

I MUST.

IVY MUST DO IT.

MUST!

I always get fed up whenever i end up didnt jog after saying so many big words repeatedly.

Indeed its all because you are lazy, Ivy. :(

I MUSSSSSTT!

I MUST!

2011-09-01T16:58:00.002+08:00

YO!

Can i show some of my works here?

I believe some of you do not believe that i'm always that busy!

If some of you remember me asking you about chocolate brand name or the ideas or the taglines of the brand.

Yes, its' the one i have already done!

And i was very very grateful towards you all for helping me out!

Regardless on bricks or bricko, or taglines or the correction of the logo!

Even though i can produce a much better work than this, but because that period was all the time rushing to print so that i can leave for COR peacefully!!

So far, i think my work was kinda of special because of the cups for the chocolate icecream and some odd shapes for chocolate box etc.

But definitely, my classmates creatively are soooo much better!! ( if you have seen my class work photoalbum i took in fb!)

And would like to show this last min card for the rest of my cor members in Squirtles!

I think its one of my greatest work! XD

I rmb all the time i was rushing for my projects and couldnt attend many outings when projects submission is ard the corner and cor post camp was during that period too!

TOO TOUGH..

TOOOO TOUGH!!!

Fortunately i was able to do something better than nothing right?!

This girl arh.

havent get her card yet.

She MIA for so long! :I

LOL!

I cant wait for this sat's night stayover at mervyn's house!

I cant wait to meet my Hi friends this FRIDAY!!

TOMORRROW!

2011-08-30T01:10:00.002+08:00

HAHA. OKAY.

Another weird photo of mine. :D

I really dislike my short hair.

Dislike my body fats.

GRRR

and i really really cant wait to shop for new clothes!

Imagine watching ladies wearing fashionable clothes everyday.

I want to be like them!

Koreanishhhhhhh style is my liking!

Arrrrrghhhh.

Lol.

Parents away for a week.

I shall do something different right?

CLEAN THE ROOM!

YES.

I try to 'renovate' my whole room into a CLEANEST ROOM ever even i have to turn my room upside down.

I guess its one of my mum's wishes, since she always scream at me.

She said my room is THE WORST ROOM of the year.

Good night people!

2011-08-22T13:45:00.002+08:00

YO WAT'S UP.

Was doing alot of unnecessary things.

Don't feel good about it.

Hmm.

i think i was too lazy to create another card for my friend.

What i did was so similar from the previous cards i made.

aww.

T_T

I am indeed LAZY!

And what i saw from his expression was like, "eh. the same ?"

he doesnt even say thank you to me!

Even though the card was from all of us, i was the one who did everything! :(

but of course, all i did was to copy and paste. :X LOL!

Argh. Ivy, u are sooo lazy lor.

Holiday is here and i'm slacking alot right now.

But actually there's some school work to do for tomorrow.

There's pasar malam!

They will prepare a classroom for our class, to display our projects.

We have to prepare 5 projects that are the best out of every module.

And i'm lazy here.

I was playing some games just now.

Aww.

Anyone know Fashion World in fb?

yes, i'm back there!

I believe it make my mind going when come to decorating my shop with limited things!

And i should do some sudoku to keep my mind from going rusty.

alrighttttt.

i shall go back to work before i panick!

2011-08-16T22:11:00.000+08:00

I think i'm too greedy.

RAHH!

Need some self-reflection!

2011-08-14T15:50:00.000+08:00

Why you all so innocent?

Am i too? >.<

2011-08-14T15:44:00.000+08:00

I feel very confused.

Feeling good while feeling bad.

2011-08-11T18:32:00.002+08:00

Holidays coming soon!

YAY YAY!

Haiz.

not excited at the same time.

Got so much work to do! :(

Deadlines for my list.

1. Friday - Packaging

2. Saturday - XXX

3. Tuesday - Logo

4. Wednesday - Typography

5. Friday - Purple Sage Branding

ARGH!!!

2011-08-08T19:11:00.002+08:00

YO. :D

I LOVEEEEEEE FISHEYEEEEEE TO MAXXXXX!!!

I can't wait to get hold of the lens!

Heard its a third party lens. So cooooool..... XD

I have alot of tagged photos of fisheye. But its in a private album, so was not able to see all of them! haha.

So cool sia.

So cool.

SO COOL!!

2011-08-07T19:53:00.003+08:00

Sometimes i felt that i was ignored by HI friends.

Even though i'm a HI, and sometimes, i talk and hear like any hearing person.

I understood how the HI actually feels. When HI was with me and i start talking to hearing, HI feel so leftout because HI do not get what i was saying even though i'm also a HI. :(

Sometimes i find you doing other things in order not to look so lost in the group. :(

I apologised for not able to master sign language so that i can sign and talk at the same time.. so that you will not feel outcast in the group.

SORRY!! :(

2011-08-07T18:22:00.002+08:00

I want to be liberated from all these problems that i feel so uneasy about!

anyway. the picture u see on ur left, is a stitch!

I made it using papers!

Done everything within 5 hours!

but i like the outcome! ^^

However, i don't want to do these kind ever again.

=_=

Hahaha.

2011-08-06T01:03:00.003+08:00

Okay okay. i know everyone of you are going to say, " HUH. why ivy trying to look like a korean?!" " Why ivy is getting so vain!?!" "what a vain bitch" LOL

Yah. trying lol.

YAY! Kor is back today! I was really happy that he's back home with his family and also to have a long rest before school starts! :)

LALALA.

today hi club performances was good.

somehow some year 1 hi clubbers are not expressive enough but i think they alr learn more than me. Paiseh.

lol..

2011-08-04T21:50:00.002+08:00

LOOK WEIRD?

LOL.

PARDON ME if u find my mouth close in a awkward way. LOL!

I'm trying to fit my face to my hair. LOL

Paiseh. i'm still trying to wear differently because it look weird with a hair like that!

2011-07-31T16:44:00.004+08:00

LOL

MY HAIR.

I just had my haircut by mum last night.

My hair fringe was cut by myself.

I don't trust mum when come to cutting fringe. =_=

She always cut it so so SHORT that i cant even hide or pin it up.

So I don't really let her cut my fringe ever since primary 4. LOL

ANYWAY, FOR THE REST OF MY HAIR, i let my mum cut.

AND SHE CUT REALLY SHORT!!!

Argh...

ALOT OF PPL SAY I LOOK OLDER. =_=

anyway, the reason why i want to have a haircut is because i cant wait to get rid of the broom brown hair!!!

Now finally la!

BUT LOOK OLDER?!!?!

2011-07-27T14:38:00.002+08:00

I realized i have been not catching up with my work recently.

and when come to submission, its like all crap.

T_T

My lecturers who taught me especially typography and corporate identity started to find me really lazy.

I was told to redo and explore more ideas.

I'm not angry with them, BUT MYSELF!

And looking at all my classmates work especially those who doesnt really draw or make their work creative in the past, made their submission work really NICE!

Especially when some of them do not have passion for art, already make the work a good one!

I started to feel like i'm sitting on the chair while they all walking together to the future they wanted.

Ivy ah.

How OLD ARE YOU.

=_=

Its not really good...

to have so many friends..

who always..

ask me for outings..

that keep me busy ..

at all the times..!!

=_=

FOR NOW.

I CANT SAY WHETHER I CAN GO FOR MY POST CAMP on the 13 AUGUST.

I WANT TO DO MY BEST.

I WANT TO PUT ALL MY PASSION FOR ART INTO MY WORK.

RIGHT NOW...!

GRR. SO GROSSED.

2011-07-23T09:43:00.006+08:00

Hee.

I dunno kor allow these photos to be in public, since no one get these photos yet. :X

I'm really VERY THANKFUL that Kor was in charge of taking photos in cor, besides, in my group, mervyn also brought his dslr along too. so u will be able to find me in most of the photos. heheh. XD

I reall treasure alot of these days in cor.

It was a REALLY A GOOD ONE!

i cant say its better than my korea trip.

ITS UNCOMPARABLE!

But i still MISS the korea trip!

BUT I ALSO MISS MY COR GROUP!

2011-07-23T09:09:00.002+08:00

What's up.

lol.

i'm dying!

honestly, i have spending about 4-5 hours for sleeping everyday.

i know its not really a good thing.

and i realize that i can eat 2 meals for dinner and i'm doing that habit recently..

well, i'm doing that because since i have lack of energy due to lack of sleep, i eat more food to have energy.

My tummy is showing! AWW

SO SAD. ITS SHOWING, VERY VERY OBVIOUS LOR!!

T_T

I'm going to lose them when holiday comes.

hai~~~

I also got ALOT ALOT OF PIMPLES LOR.

=_=

DAMN DAMN UGLY ALR.

T_T

recently, i have also use 'makeup' to cover up the UGLY PIMPLES AND SCARS.

T_T

HAI~

2011-07-18T20:22:00.004+08:00

Today was tiring.

SUPER TIRED THAT I FEEL SO LAZY TO DO MY 3 PROJECTS THAT I NEED TO SUBMIT TML.

AND KOR's NEWS make me feel emo at a moment.

Its so unfair..

I'm not blaming God for anything.

I felt that, Kor really really deserved to enjoy his 3 weeks in australia and can spend more time with yuting.

AND YET, WHAT?

Both of them met an car accident there!

He got neck injury and yuting got rib injury.

Kor was such a good KOR and he does not deserve to have these injuries! Besides, I always find him running around taking photos and videos every weekend without complaining.

THATS WHY I'M SAYING THAT HE SHOULD BE ENJOYING HIS HOLIDAY! =_=

Yuting as well. So smart and talented deserved a fun tour there, especially visiting her sister there looking fine!

Why out of 10000000 people there, Kor and yuting have to be the ones to be injured?!

Anyway, i was thankful that God saved them from worse situations.

Haiz.

I felt like a fool here.

Complaining everyday about schoolwork when they experienced in a even more worse situation.

Felt so ashamed.

T_T

Kor.. Take care of yourself and Yuting ok!

Don't worry about me la. =_=

Hee. now i got EVEN MORE TIME TO MAKE UR CARDS! YAY!

2011-07-17T17:16:00.007+08:00

Oh yes! I forgot to show you guys about my cards i printed long time ago!

since the june holiday, whereby i already printed the cards!

I thought it will be good if i show some work of mine instead of 'describing' what my school work all the time.

LOL.

Recently, we had a song-signing performance in june 11, and we want to sincerely thank the instructors for putting up with us because its our first time learning song-signing.

It took us about 5 weeks of practice and it went well on the actual day!

so yah. i took A DAY to finish this.

What a shame.. i should finish this in 5 hours at max.

=_=

2011-07-16T22:11:00.002+08:00

Love it. :P

Took my polaroid's lens and use it on my canon camera.

ROCKS LEH!

2011-07-16T01:27:00.003+08:00

I MISS MY KOR. :(

haiz.

should try to get used to his absence.

arghhhh

=_=

I always used to sms him to talk craps during school days.

Now i dun get any messages even from friends for the whole day or some days of the week!

Now i shall not get bothered about hp alr. I think gonna to get used to it liao! LOL..

I bet kor is enjoying himself alot with yuting in Australia now! :)

ENJOY ALOT OK! You really deserve a big big break and honeymoon with yuting!! xD

2011-07-14T20:22:00.002+08:00

Sometimes i love being a HI person because all your HI friends are really carefree people. They do not know any complicated things when they get older, because of the main problem; they cannot hear.

This is why HI people tend to mature longer or later.

They are not open to the world of hearings even though we study with them together or work tgt as a team for years.

Hearings have more knowledges about the world because they always overheard from people or friends whenever they go to public transport like mrt or even share a same table with other people who talk about their problems and stories where you learn to know more things about people's lives.

But we HI do not even can hear them or care about understanding things that do not belong to us or relate to us at all. So there's a saying, 'See no evil, Hear no evil, Speak no evil'.

I realized that there's a lot of us still do not know that the world out there is evil, full of setups and full of gossips. Sometimes its not good when you are not knowledgable because you can get hurt anytime. But sometimes its good because its not making your life so complicated as it is.

So yah!

Even come to being a HI who cannot hear anything when there's no hearing aids on, i was able to focus on my work! Like this morning. I do not want to get distracted by music or kpop or even fb. Unplug my internet wire and didnt wear hearing aid and straight away to do work.

I did for hours until 12pm where i have to leave for school! Perfect. :)

Hearing may think its quite sad or pitiful to see the HI living so simple like this, but i think you guys should be happy because we already accept who we are, so be happy la! ^^

2011-07-11T18:13:00.005+08:00

I realized that i couldnt express freely of myself in class.

Especially i'm a HI.

I always had to show a strong side in front of them.

Whenever they talk in chinese, i always act like i'm used to it.

Even though i do not have full knowledge in mandarin, i still catch some words they said.

There's one time i heard and they were talking about other people, and felt was thankful that i don't understand mandarin well.

I just simply do not want to know...

On the other hand, they also even mention me in mandarin. Sometimes i wish to understand what they are really saying about me. But sometimes its really hurting if i hear anything bad things they don't like about me if i know mandarin. Somtimes i'm thankful that i'm HI.

When come to my school work or grades, its all about them. I never dare to offend or dislike anyone. The only reason is, I'm always a disadvantage among everyone in class.

No matter how bad or how good they are, I know i'm always be the last choice they will choose.

Sometimes i always wish my bestfriends are here with me, who can always say, " IVY AND ME, ONE GROUP!" whenever project grouping starts.

Hai~ but still, i will keep staying strong!!

Because i'm already thankful for everyone there who work with me in projects in the past.

And because of my class, i was able to move on! ^^

2011-07-10T10:51:00.002+08:00

Work sucks.

=_=

I dunno how am i going to manage my work load later today.

Seriously laaaa!!!!

2011-07-07T23:43:00.004+08:00

HERE WE GO!

I'm sorry that i wasnt able to list everyone there. but i think i did for those who gave me the presents and treats.

BUT for those who wish me or celebrate with me last sat, I REALLY APPRECIATE THOSE AS WELL!

It doesnt mean i didnt list u inside because u didnt get anything for me. I don't mean that! ^^ i just want to sincerely thank them for giving me the presents they did just for me when they are already so busy!

SO I REALLY THANK U FOR ALL THE WISHES U WISH ME FOR MY BIRTHDAY THIS YR!

REALLY ENJOYED EVEN THOUGH I WAS REALLY PRESSURIED WITH WORK.

THANK U!

ENJOY WATCHING!

OMG, after watching it when i published this blog, i think my acting cuteness was VERY EXTREME! even I watch it myself, i feel so disgusted by those weird expressions i had! =_=

And pardon all those parts where i speak! You wont be able to catch wat i say because of the music background and the speed of the video! AND PARDON ALL THE HIGH PITCHES I HAD.

Besides, I'm having a flu now, so my speaking is not very good...

And the speed of the video.. haha.. I just want to shorten it so that u can watch it without feeling bored! hahaha

ANYWAY

I start videoing at 8.50pm!

AND

i already finish editing the whole movie at 11.20pm!

Honestly, i dunno how long i did but i felt that i took quite a long time like.. 5 hours!?

AND I WAS SURPRISED THAT I finish within 2 and a half hour for videoing myself inside and editting eng sub and other stuffs inside!

IVY, U SHIOK LE.

ANYWAY, i shouldnt be so proud of myself.

The point here is, I SINCERELY LOVE UR PRESENTS AND TREATS!

You matters alot to me esp now!!

As well as my other friends too! ^^

2011-07-07T23:04:00.002+08:00

PHEW.

I just done a MOVIE!

FOR MY FRIENDS WHO GAVE ME PRESENTS!

LOVE IT AND U ROCK!

Gonna to upload in youtube!

SO YEP!

SEE YA ALL TML!

2011-07-06T23:51:00.000+08:00

LATER I WILL BLOG ABOUT MY BUDDIES' PRESENT AND MY KOR'S FLASH. XD

2011-07-06T23:15:00.002+08:00

Suspected that lily is getting a photoframe for me!

hahaha.

Today we met and she requested to take photo with me!

Suddenly like that, of course i smell a rat!

2011-07-05T01:54:00.000+08:00

KOR
HAPPY BIRTHDAY!

U had been the BESTEST KOR i ever had since this yr january. Thank you for being there for me when i feel stressed or when i feel happy!! I'm truly happy that i can wish u after my bday ends EVERY YEAR even when u are 40, 60 or 80 years old! Hehe! You will always be REMEMBERED BY ME, KOR!! ^^ Do enjoy your honeymoon with Yu Ting Tan !! MUST ENJOY ALOTTTTTTT HOR!!!!! Take millions of photos tgt okay! ^^ Love u KOR! XD

Sorry, i copy and paste from fb. XD

2011-07-05T01:11:00.002+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO IVY

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME!!!

Haiz.

being 20 is not good!

I started to regret many things i did in the past. :(

I hurt so many people.

chanying, diyana, zhoumeng, jiayi, layling, rachel, beile, ida and so many other!

I'm truly sorry! I know all the mistakes i did, will not make up anything.

BUT if i start now looking ahead, I must treasure whatever i do now as a 20-years-old!

Even though i'm not matured enough and still think like 17-18 years old person, i must strive on and catch up! HAHA.

I want to thank you everyone for putting up with me! :)

I really really appreciate every moments with all my friends.

Love u all!!!!

2011-07-04T14:11:00.001+08:00

YAY! ^^

2011-07-04T01:54:00.000+08:00

Maybe i will look like this when i turn 21.
=_=

2011-07-03T21:19:00.003+08:00

Its really good to be young.. =_=

ANYWAY, I WAS SAYING..

that I WAS VERY THANKFUL FOR LAST NIGHT.

People who didnt went to wet activity went to join us for dinner at woodlands. Thank you for the OREO cake!!!

I miss those fun we had in our gatherings! Thank you all!!! :) :)

0.0

Do i look emo last night? Rachel and Diyana said i look really in a bad mood..

Err. i wasn't. I was feeling very very tired.. and thinking alot of my hmk!

Aww. I'm dying...

Dun worry about it!

Thinking that tml is my bday is making me more moody. =_=

2011-07-03T17:42:00.001+08:00

YAY.

THATS ME OK.

Mum said it doesnt look like me and she said that I HAVE MJ NOSE! IS IT?

SO HONORED LEH!

2011-06-29T23:41:00.010+08:00

Last Sunday was one of my bestest bestest days i enjoyed so far! :)

First thing, we get to see my cor leader, eileen off!

Okay, i sat the train from jurong east, all the way to Pasir Ris!

Awesome enough?!

I was embarrassing myself infront of a group who i met at Jurong whom they get off at paya lebar to wait for a friend and will join me later at the changi airport.

And i'm not there at changi yet, because i was supposed to change train at tanah merah.

Paiseh when i got there.

=_=

Anyway, after all the byebyees for Eileen and Alicia, steven and i went off to church at redhill.

Quite rushing for us. =_=

Then i head back home by mrt while my family eat

lunch at church.

In 15 minutes later, they are back home! ARGH.

i should wait for them since my uncle got car. =_=

Anyway, Kor, Yuting and Madeline came over to my house to celebrate my birthday in advance.

All dressed in checkered! =_=

Went to eat PIZZZZZA!

TREATED BY KOR.

AWESOME SIA!!!

DAMN DELICIOUS!!!

Gonna to ask kor wat's the name if my family want to order one. Quite nice sia.

Somemore, Madeline bought us Durian puffs!

Was it puff? 0.0

But its SUPER DELICIOUS!

she paid for about 5-6 puffs.

LOVE HER!<3

I'm really blessed to have her as my buddy in cor11! :)

Went to play wii.

I feel so weird, cox all of them are NTU and they are playing!?!

LOL

anyway, we played a lot of games and i'm sick of it already. =_=

then we left the house!

Yuting went home and Madeline went to see her grandmother.

So Kor and i went to watch movies!

HELLO GHOST!

Even though it was a korean movie, i was not expecting good parts from it because the movie title doesnt satisfy me..

But when we reach there, we started laughing. :X

Really hilarious! hahaha!

The main character had to imitate every ghost made me laugh.

I dunno how to describe but its re

ally a good movie too!

In the end of the movie, i went teary because its quite sad and touching at the same time.

After that, we went to raffles place.

Went to find a place where Madeline recommended us to go.

I was wondering what so good about it and all what Kor said was " Korean Beef, korean beef!".

I gonna to get sick of hearing 'Beef' soon. =_=

Then after about 15 minutes of walking around the street, we found the

place!

When we were walking nearer to the shop, i saw the place familiar!

SUPER SUPERRRRRRRRRRRRR!

Only that shop HAVE THAT.. TUBE thing for BBQ!! (look at the photo taken in seoul!)

I was sooo excited when i saw that!

I was like, Are we going to eat that place?!?!

Kor smiled & nodded super hard and then, we entered the place quickly.

hahahaha!

Was looking around.

Not looking clean and grand but abit old and messy.

BUT I LIKE!

THIS IS KOREA STYLE!!!

Then i open the menu excitedly, expecting the similar food like in korea too! Then i saw it! was like omg omg omg.

HAHAHA.

okay la. i'm really crazy about korea la..

BUT REALLY.

when i look at Kor and the place i'm at, i felt like we are really in korea!

hahahahaha.

Almost feel like crying because i just simply couldnt believe it!

Besides, Kor wanna to treat me everything on that day, so i was even more and more BLESSED.

Blessed to be born in this world.

Blessed to be a hearing impaired.

Blessed to know korean music and became a fan of korea.

Blessed to join COR

Blessed to be in group B

Blessed to meet someone who born on the same month as me

Blessed to become his godsister after knowing him for a while

Blessed to be well-treated

Blessed to have a great dinner with him for my advanced birthday!

Thank you kor for everything!

I'm truly happy!

hahaha!

then we started ordering 3 dishes only because i believe the food will be served with more dishes such as lettuces, kimchi, etc to eat together with!

Then i took polaroid with him, eating wrapped lettuce with beef!

We ate super a lot and ya, we are full!!

Then we went off for a walk and sat somewhere to talk!

Before we left the place, i took with him again outside the shop!

Cant wait to ask my friends out to eat there again!!!!

In fact, i didnt expect the outcome from that part of the talk.

i didnt became emo or anything.. Just feeling confused.

SO DUN WORRY! :D

I was quite happy, but at the same time, sad and guilty.

LOL

ANYWAY, OVERALL,

KOR, U MADE MY DAY!!!!!!

I should marked the date, 26 JUNE! :)

PS: Kor got a gf already. So friends, don't spread rubbish around. =_=

2011-06-28T16:05:00.000+08:00

Look at my face.

CAN U SEE SCARS AND PIMPLES?

SO AWFUL.

=_=

I'm going out alone, to print my school work.

Anyone want to join me now?

I'm available for dinner... and i'm bored.

At outram park!

2011-06-22T19:45:00.003+08:00

I still feel the chill again.
People disliking me for many things.

Can feel it; people give me glares of jealousy.

I may speak and hear better than some of my friends,
i may make friends more too, or
have more things than some of them too,
but i'm not perfect like everyone.

I have fears in falling in love.
I have fear of attentions.
I have fear of silence.
I have fear of losing my loved ones.
I have fear of misunderstanding.

I'm not perfect, you see..

Thinking about it just now..
i really want to thank my best friends, family and kor for giving me all the support.
Losing other friends may matter but importantly, i need you guys the most.

You guys are part of my life!! :D :D

2011-06-20T23:34:00.004+08:00

I love COR11!

It rocks!

Even though there's rain everyday, we bond together very well.

i just simply can't imagine how its' like to be in other team where i cant really click, or maybe it's just me who think that way.

Anyway, i enjoyed a lot, especially with my kor's company.

I get to see him everyday for straight 4 days.

I start to get this feeling that we are real siblings even though its' only for that moment.

haha.

My buddy rocks. Madeline!!!! I really enjoyed chatting with her!!!!!! <3

i think she's the most caring and the nicest friend among the committee members.

Even she and my kor are close too?

yay..........

My group leader is the best among the others too.

The cutest and the most active one, who runs here and there. Eileeen, you rocks man!

My other teammates like Mervyn. He's one of the people i admire. He has a creative mind and is really sharp in anything we do. He's super good in photography!!!! He's cute and funny too!

Jenson is one of the cutest guy also! He's really so funny. Jinhe always bully him. When he laugh, i laugh too. He's really very cheerful!

Jasper is someone that i must bully a lot! He's hilarious but he's nice! hahaha. Wish to bully him again man.. and i always laugh at his face. His new signing name is really hilarious....... LOL!

Adrian! well well, he's someone who is so generous and kind! he really make sure my bag is with us. sometimes he help to carry my bag because i always drag it on the floor. lol..! he's nice guy. and i was shocked a while ago.. he's 20 like meeeee! OMG. =_= and he's malaysian. ANOTHER OMG.

Eirene! She's the CUTEST one. So cute! Like her friendliness, and she's really matured. I mean its because she's small-sized. So cute when she talk like a mature person. She's cool la!

Jason! The guy who is the chairman of the whole group. So funny yet responsible.

Always trying to be strong in front of us. Saying that he's not sick when he is, he's not cold when he shivers. lol. But i was glad that he's in my group! YAY. i know he doesnt like to sit with me, but i know he like to see my cute face. LOL!

I have others HI such as Joe eng, Isaac, Jinhe, and Choon Huan! :D

2011-06-13T00:40:00.002+08:00

haiz.
when i make friends, i make friends.
when i say i'm your 'mummy' or anything, i always mean that way.
I never go back my words.
even i becomes your enemy, i still promise the same way i did last time with you and treat you like before.
and why people still think i will change my feelings one day?
I just need you to trust me! Why is it so hard?
I know i look like have a lot of friends, but doesn't mean you are forgotten!!

2011-06-13T00:31:00.002+08:00

HEY HELLO KITTY FANS.

i got a classmate who love hello kitty.
Was planning which camera to get.

Check them out here.

Polaroid or Diana Mini?
Polaroid cost 155 and Diana Mini cost 69.

I'm going crazy.

Give me comments.
Which one should i get!

2011-06-09T11:07:00.001+08:00

http://www.allkpop.com/2011/06/birth-of-a-great-star-contestants-take-a-trip-to-the-amusement-park

Look at this! I think we saw 2 of them walking around at LOTTE WORLD.
i saw many cameramen!
I can't really recognise them, so i didnt bother stalking. lol!
But if there's any video to watch, i will watch!
SEE IF I'M THERE!
Because i purposely walk past.
and obviously you can see me!! XD

2011-06-09T10:27:00.003+08:00

YAY. Steven's graduation photo with family!
LOL.

Papa and sister didnt turn up due to school and work. lol.
I know you will be staring at my enormous fat legs.
hahahaha.. STOP STARING!
=_=

Why i upload this, is because i went across this when i was cleaning up my folders in my hard disk, thus my macbook sometimes went hanged, which i may fear any of my work will go unsaved anytime after hours of hard work.
LOL.

Now at this time, i'm working on it.
Imagine.. My family slept around 1am due to finding the lost hamster. (Found her already)
Then i doing projects till 2-3 plus.
then this morning, i woke up the earliest before my family woke up, just to continue my work.
9am.
seriously...

I really have a pitiful life. Hahahahaha..
=_=
Ivy, you are soo sooo pitiful, and yet you are smiling everyday.
IVY IS SO STRONG! KEEP IT GOING!

Yeah, i should!!!
YAY YAY.

Okay, shall start working then meet rachel.
then print works and submit.
goodness sake. today no class but i need to suffer because i skip school the day before. :X

2011-06-08T01:47:00.001+08:00

I MAKE SURE WHEN I FINSH EVERYTHING BY MONDAY AND SUBMIT ON MONDAY IF DEADLINES ARE CONFIRMED, I WILL START SLEEPING AT 10PM OR even 9AM onwards.

I JUST SIMPLY WANT TO SLEEP FOREVERRRRR!

2011-06-05T13:12:00.003+08:00

I was sick last wednesday.
Actually it wasn't that bad like what i had on monday.

The flu was really bad.
i kept taking out tissue paper in class
and made a lot of crazy noises.

Somehow, by wednesday, the flu was still there.
I was already ready to leave the house, and i found out that my flu are still there cox my nose is blocked again. So i thought i should take a day off for rest and do my work too.

Besides, i didn't really finish everything that is supposed to be.
So I MISSED 2 FREAKY LESSONS.
It was really precious time for me to use those lessons more worthwhile if i missed it.
So i went to see the doctor and i came back in two HOURS PLUS.

I WAS SO GROSSED, THAT I WASTED 2 HOURS ON NOTHING FOR WORK.
2 hours are simply wasted on doctor thing.
so i had less hours to do my work.
Grr.

Pardon me, i am now very cautious about timing already.
Waste at least an hour on useless thing, i will start to lose confidence in my GPA.

Haiz...
even today, i'm having AN HEADACHE.
But i hope my parents are not.

God, save me from all the illnesses.

2011-05-25T17:39:00.002+08:00

Shiok.
i love this film!
besides, its in blue as well!
and i love you all for buying me this wonderful polaroid camera!
Thank you alllll! <3

This film is the first one, where i use the lens i bought!

Its really so cool!
XD
Besides, they make ur face smaller!
Love it! <3

2011-05-25T13:24:00.002+08:00

Yep. At starbucks. (always pronounce wrongly. i always say Starblucks) LOL
waiting for my new passport after renewing at 11pm.
Have to wait for 4 hours, which is at 3pm.
but i wasted 2+ hours on lunch and walking around the shops for inspirations!! =___=

So i'm around at commonwealth i guess?
maybe.. =_=
After thinking for days.. i realized that i'm such a troublemaker. Even i have good intentions for my dear friends, i did not think further ahead of what will happen. aiyo, lol.

I'm not going to do anything, upon hearing any problems already.
I AM NOT GOING TO BUTT MY BUSINESS IN, ANYMORE!!!!! even to the extend i do really care. Lol.

so those that already happened, just say my name, and go make it dirty as you like since i was the one who start it. And yah, you did nothing wrong. Go blame everything to me. I will bear the burdens for you if you want.

In this way, i will feel better. lol.
If you think i'm stubborn, yeah i am!

:D

2011-05-22T21:40:00.000+08:00

OOPS, i set the post date wrongly. =_=
Last 2 weeks, i blogged really long! Like few A4 pages.
And sound entertaining to read as well.. BUT.

ITS GONE.. Aish.
i copied the html of my post and wait until the photos got uploaded there. so i delete it since i already copied them. so when i was waiting , i went to check facebook, something over there make me copy the link and paste. then i go back to the blogger and paste back my html, that was the link i copied from facebook. SO I'M LIKE.. O.......... M............ GGGGGGGGGGG!!!

Jiayi, now you know what i mean?
Haiz. I sucks!

ANYWAY. YESTERDAY I WAS SAYING.. haiz. NO MOOD TO SAY THOSE..
I was not in the mood because of the severe projects attacking my brain every minute, every hour, everyday. So i was trying to be happy once again, during the crap period.
SO to be happy with myself, i'm going to talk about KOREA TRIP!

OKAY, LET'S TALK.

Every morning, we tend to go to different cafe for breakfast.
We tend to try something new and newer, and different from singapore!

And that's where i start getting amazed by the beautiful view in the cafe!
I couldn't stop turning my head in 360 degrees for a full view everywhere. It was so koreanish!!!
If you ever shop online especially in korean website example , you tend to see models taking pictures in the cafes. It was so beautiful!!! I kept WOWing everywhere.
I even saw some polaroids of its' own menu food.

Amazing sia.
So koreanishhhh.. Oh ya! There's something that singapore don't even have or, or maybe have but rarely!

They will use something to make the thing vibrate to call us to come to the counter to collect the food. SO COOL!

Look at it above! that thing! got all kinds of cute shape for every cafe!
Thats amazing uh.
I met 3 different kinds of cafe and i can't stop looking at it.
So cute sia!

Then another one above on the right! That one is a.. PASTA!
i was wondering what it was at the first place. The paste covered up by the cooked bread.
It was super big! bigger than 30cm x 30cm. Its all because the plate is big, so it look big.
hahaha. THEN we need 2-3 person to cut them open.
i tried the bread, and it taste so crispy and delicious!!
then the pasta inside is the seafood kind... its so cheesy and YUMMMMY!!!
So much better than pastamania!

That place with show that special pasta, also got Korean-ish toilet!!
AND THIS ONE. Do you know that there's special kind of toilet bowl especially in korea or maybe in japan? I heard of electronic bed which warm up the people when they sleep during the cold season. I never heard about the toilet one! No wonder the drama don't show about the toilet because they don't shit in front of the broadcast. LOL..

Anyway, there's such toilet bowl which provide heater! Can you believe it? It warms your buttock and make them a peaceful place to sit during the cold season. Only some shops has it, depending what upper or lower class they are in. Its so super cool. You can even use other functions such like cleaning your butt as well! Even how hot the water to clean ur butt also can adjusted! Amazing right?! One time i was really freezing from outside, so i was at the restroom quite long than expected because it give off a good feeling! HAHA!

And oh yeah, if you ever seen the first photo on top of the post. Don't you think its beautiful?!
I am not really sure whether i already taste it.. But i felt that i enjoyed that taste and its' the most recommended one in the cafe. I didn't ordered for one (rachel's friend ordered) because we wanted to try others as well. So far, every warm latte we ordered every morning, it was the best ones! I felt so warm and relax after drinking it when we came in from the chilling wind outside. Besides, the feeling was just simply exciting to be in korea! x)

BEAUTIFUL CAMERA REQUIRES BEAUTIFUL THINGS TO BE SHOT!
And i never expect the flowers to be looking in the photos so much better than looking at the actual flowers. :)

CANON 60D, I LOVE YOU FOR BEING LIKE THIS!
Thanks to kor helping me to get this cheapest camera!
Thanks family for purchasing this!
^^

RACHEL GOES YOYO HERE. :D She looked good with sunglasses right?!
xD Besides, the photo make rachel look like a celebrity who saw paparazzi taking photos of her. So She smiled like that! HAHAHA!! RIGHT???

And the photo beside Rachel, is the place where you will recognise if you ever watch running man! I think ep 7 or 8. Forgot already. I rmb they ran around this place and its where jong kook ran! XD That place is only closed on tuesday, so i bet they were playing on one of the tuesdays! Not forgetting those people who use these palaces for drama or movie filming as well! XD
I'm so so so so honored to be visiting the same place as them!

LOTTE WORLD!
where the iceskating place is, where you can see those famous drama film at!
Rachel tried this headband on and its' blurry for me to see whether it was janice or rachel. LOL!
And me trying to take a good shot with the riding horse. Right, i look retarded trying to take something not real.
I haddd a lot of fun even though i didnt took most of the rides there.
I also even found out that i'm getting old!!! I couldnt take the dizziness after taking the wildest ride.

Hmm.. Have you heard? After i told rachel and yu shan that i couldnt take anymore rides, they went for another wildest ride ever where i can see a lot of people screaming with excitement. That's where rachel lost her spectacles. Well yah, that moment was really sad for her and she got a new replacement once we returned to singapore.

Left photo above, is the 4th day i think. I suggested for a shot because we wore skirts together! :)
Then we also wearing cap we bought the day before, so its like woah, you know!
Besides, we also very excited, looking forward to the day outings. Awesome.
I really miss all the days we spend together, REALLY! I will keep these memories to the bottom of my heart!

The next photo beside it, is one of my best favourite photos! I don't know why.
If i'm another person looking at this photo, i feel like she's a interesting and wild person that i want to know. The way she pose openly with her arms and legs, it make me think that she had a lot of freedom. Oh well .. I'm boasting too much here. HAHA, please tolerate it. :)

I also like this photo, where rachel and i look very curious and playful towards the camera itself.
AND...
THE BEEEEEEF.
THE BEST.
That time, i memorised the taste and even now i'm reminded of the taste!
SO CHEWY. SO TASTY. ALOT OF JUICES!
Even salmons can't win over this.
Aww. I want to go back to Korea! :(

Look how beautiful Rac... the place is?! HAHA. Even on top of rachel's head is shining so pretty!
Then we also visited the Bear Museum! Amazing!

Something really funny about the Bear Museum! That time we knew that they will be closed in few hours time and we rushed in and took as much photos as we can. I felt like we had to do many photos as possible to win something. Because we are like " Rachel, faster go there pose!" and she will go like okay and rush to the bear and smiled then i took it, then i give her my camera and she goes "Okay, ready?! 1, 2, 3!" then we go look for other cute bears and do all over the same thing and running everywhere! Like less than 1min, we took about 4-6 shots already. When we were done with the whole museum, we rested on the bench and goes " Phew, we finished every single thing!" LOL! then we went up to the highest building to see the seoul view! AMAZINGGGG!
i was still tired from running here and there a moment ago, so i was not actually eager when i saw the big view of the whole seoul. LOL.

Yep, both on the same day. should be 3rd day of the trip!
that day is where we started to find more beautiful blossoms!
LOVELY!!!!!

CAN YOU EVEN IMAGINE HOW THEY ACTUALLY TASTE LIKE?
they taste so much better than any of the dishes in singapore! I'm.. SERIOUS!!!!!!!
May be its just me, since i always go WOW in korea. so everything is like amazing!
THEY TASTE DAMN DELICIOUS!
If only diy cy and janice with us, they confirm want to throw their return ticket away!

the first photo on the left, was the most special one i tried so far.
i thought i will die of spice.
but somehow, in heaven!
The spice where u can see the red and orange thingy, IS REALLY DELICOUS!
DAMN TASTY LA!!!!!!
even though it keep burning my mouth and i had to drink ice water whenever i eat one mouthful, it was awesome feeling to have this thing in my mouth. xD

i still remember how it taste like. and i really sooooo happy and thankful to rachel's family who risked bringing me there.

alright, next photo on the right.
SHIOK.
that one is pork i think, then we eat with the veg together, as well as KIMCHI. ( i always make sure got kimchi!!)
SO CRISPY AND IT MELTS UR TONGUE!! I 'died' on every mouthful.

i eat really fast that time because that was our last dinner before flying back to korea on the next day in the afternoon!

ALRIGHT. I SHALL POSTED IT NOW.

2011-05-21T19:12:00.002+08:00

NICE? SAY NICE PLS.

I know u gonna to say, " AH! this is so ivy's style!"

xD
this is so similar to my previous artworks.
especially this t-shirt i designed!
hahahaha. No difference from this.

People always say, " Ivy, ur style still same. Never change one.. =_=" assuming me to be more creative in my work. Ya ya yah..

I JUST MADE UP MY MIND! I'M GOING TO EXERCISE NOW!

JOGGGGING!
:)
i have too many things on mind and i need to release it!

2011-05-21T18:27:00.002+08:00

If you are curious why some never come to your event on 11 June.
Let me say here...

There's FOUR events i'm facing.

One. MHI event to inspire the younger HIs (1 - 4pm)
Two. TSC event for water activites such as dragonboat (9am - 6pm)
Three. COR event for pre-camp to know your team members (probably in the morning till afternoon)
Four. My friend's 21st birthday ( Safe timing since its at evening.) - dunno its ok to reveal who the person since she's not inviting the whole world there.

So ya. Now you get to see the whoooole picture. lolll

2011-05-21T13:42:00.002+08:00

Yeah yeah. i was telling you all these because i thought you were a kind soul who forgive like how god did.
and warn them just like that.

But now, i realized that i was wrong about people.
They were not totally like me, who forgive and forget to those especially who are my close friends whom i shared many moments with them.

I was told that everyone got their own opinions, thoughts and everything.
No wonder i was always wondering why their expectations were not like what i expect.
Now i get it.
I shouldn't be doing these, just by thinking that they have the same thoughts like me.

Ivy, you are such a troublemaker.
And you wont be able to read their minds like before.

The world out there is still so scary.

2011-05-20T01:20:00.002+08:00

Finally did two tasks today.
Pretty tiring.
Went to make card for my dear friend.
redo thrice.

I MAKE THE FROG SO UGLY.
=_=
lala. so i did the whole thing again, without a frog this time.
definitely went well mah..
so it was almost 7pm, then i went to watch drama till 8pm.
Rush out of the house, collect the cake at cck, return to bukit gombak and pass to my dear friend's bro and mum!

I miss her cuteeee mum! she's awesome and funny! HAHA.
xD
then went to meet my kor awhile.

so yah..

so so so tired.
good night!

2011-05-19T00:39:00.002+08:00

Just emailed dad..

I simply do not know why i am feeling so emotional at this period. =_=

A while ago around evening time, i overheard my sister in the next room.
She received a call while on the phone with her classmate.
then she paused the call and answered the phone.

Btw, it was on the speaker mode since my sister want to play computer games at the same time.

It was dad's voice. I leaned my head nearer towards the next room.
My dad asked where's mummy (mum's not home) and both of them talked in less than a minute.
Dad was actually asking sister how she was etc, to keep the conversation long.
AND all this while, she just answer the questions and that's it.

My dad's voice sounds like trying to keep his conversation long so that he can spend this time with sister even thought mum was out. But no questions was asked back by her...
then my dad end the conversation like, " oh.. must study hard okay."
" yah."
"alright, bye bye shirley"
" ya. bye."
then she go back and quickly call her classmate back to continue to conversation again.

AISH.
i felt so pissed. SO SO PISSEEDDD!
i'm not feeling angry about why sister is being like this.
I felt so angry with myself after i remembered that last time i answered him like this after he had done so many wonderful things just for me, mum, sister and brother after living apart for so many years. The most wonderful dad i ever have!!!!! And yet, i use this cold response when i'm busy. Aish...Dad want to spend time with us because he always been alone every night so he need some company and i don't even let him enjoy that. I'm such a cruel person...

I'm not going to do that to my dad ever again.

NEVER!!!

Aish. why do i have to still.. @#$%^ at this hour? goodness.

2011-05-16T21:30:00.002+08:00

Someone ask me a very good question.
Why i hide my face expression very well when its supposed to be obvious?

If i can express 100 face expressions to you, i can do it. So why can't i also be as well good in hiding my face expressions as well? Ah, i'm boasting! ^^

Actually i didn't thought that i can really keep my expression well. I thought may be kinda of have a bit of revealing but if you are such person who doesn't read people's face expressions or mind, you may miss the part then. If the response is too strong, i might reveal some of my face expression.

If you think that i'm hiding many things from you, probably yes. I'm sorry if my reaction to you may not be something you like.

To me, i dislike revealing my weak side.

So, i'm not showing anyone that i'm weak, even to someone i trust a lot. I don't want them to worry for me. I always wanted to show that i'm strong, i want to be a lead, to lead them to places where i learned my mistakes, so you wont fall there because i'm leading you all the way, to show you that i'm strong, not a weakling and you won't make any mistakes i did! I only thought of that when you are younger than me.

I know that when you read this, you think i'm thinking so stubborn. lol
But that's how i think.

But if you are older, of course i won't think that way. I will keep learning from you and make sure that my friends won't fall on the same mistake. I realized that i was really selfish.

I keep learning from the mistakes and overcoming the problems myself and then shielding problems from my friends. That won't let them learn it and overcome anything. i'm letting them go now, but still not totally. lol I ought to see them as young adults, learning everything on their own by now. Besides, they have their own issues, problems etc. I cant just butt in.

Sorry for being selfish, who keep thinking about myself only.

To you, i may sound like someone who has everything and have a lot of friends. Well, you are wrong.
Even though i appear as someone who have these, i always have bad days and good days. It always been a struggle for me.
Trusting this and that, giving in to this and that, smiling to this and that, and laughing. I'm just trying to be strong as much as possible.

When i got upset at this first outing, i make sure i won't be upset all the way for the whole day for my next outing. That will be a waste!
Then on the next outing, when your friends is watching you so sad and emo, won't their mood go down as well, and spoil the whole outing as well?

I NEVER NEVER WANT IT TO HAPPEN!

Because TIME IS SO PRECIOUS to me now, and i'm trying to make good use of it.
For example, one outing with 4 buddies, i can only spend 4 hours with them, but each person, i can only spend 1 hour with them! Isn't time too short?!

What the heck. Why am i explaining when no one even ask me that. =_=

I'm going to share some news later on! :)
TOMORROW A BRIGHT PUBLIC DAY. YAY!

SHALL USE THIS PRECIOUS TIME TO DO HOMEWORK!!!

2011-05-15T00:31:00.003+08:00

EVENT from MHI!
2pm, ppl start coming in.

We talk to them, like openhouse.
No fear, all of them are HI.
We tell them what are the courses, etc. then they go other poly to check as well.
Give them a paper of informations of our school, then etc.
Show them ur work too, inspire them, make them think, " Wah.. i want to design like you!" etc.

then 3pm!
Performance starts, Hi club song signing.
last performance, all the every poly people join and song-signing, like we are working as one together, from all the polys. SO HARMONY RIGHT?!

Then we start playing games with them.
Prizes given as well!

Make them think, " wah. all of them so big and independent. i want to work hard to be like them!!" and go back home and does all their homework and work hard towards their dream.

Still don't get what i mean?
Be role models, no matter which poly you are from.

2011-05-14T16:51:00.004+08:00

I just paused my korea post.
Because i think this post is more important than anything else.

Before you disagree with me, be open-minded then you can have your say.

Yesterday i went for a meeting at MHI. The meeting from NYP, TP and NP. Unfortunately, no one attended from RP. Was thinking of Steven as a replacement if others cannot make it. Ngee Ann HI club will be doing most part, and i'm very very grateful that they are all participating to this event and i hope everyone of us(Deaf) participates as well since its only for all of us.
We will be joining them for song-signing as well!!!!
AWW! I never experience song-signing before and i'm so honored to join them! JOIN US!!!

Our goal is to make the younger Deaf people to study hard and become like us.
As you can see, some younger ones, are not motivated enough to work hard to go poly like us and what can we do if they still continue being like this?

Now we are going represent our poly, the courses, the works we did in school, and show them that we worked so hard to become a useful person.
Motivate them, Inspire them, Make them think.

How do you feel when you hear people saying that HI are useless? Lazy? Hopeless? Got no future ahead?
Be one and inspire them.

Even by doing something small, you are already doing a part of Deaf society.

BTW, i'm not doing this for MHI. I'm doing this just for us, the Deaf.
Give Deaf a good impression.

2011-05-08T22:14:00.003+08:00

Today was a really tiring day.
I started having a headache when i reached home from church.
I guess i had a lack of sleep or overworked or listen to repeated songs that make me dizzy.
I don't know but i'm pretty sure that it must be one of the reasons above.

But i still carry on doing my work, but it annoyed me so i went to take a break by watching Running man Ep 35, then halfway ep 36. I couldnt take the pain, so i walked out from my room and saw my sis, and brother watching this dog movie and i was curious about this cute dog which is a japanese breed and i just hold back my headache and watch till the end. My headache became even worse when i felt emotional at the ending of the show. I walked heavily to my mum's room. Told her about my condition and asked for the panadol.

Ate it and my headache was killing me. I even cried in silence. Who won't keep quiet when it hurts? It hurt terribly and worsened the condition and i even thought of going to the hospital because it really killing me. Then i thought of death. =_= then i thought a lot of things. What should i do when i die?

I was thinking so much and it even worsen the pain. So i told myself, " think of the song and relax" and end up 'listening' to KEEP YOUR HEAD DOWN song, which make me go worse. =_=
ALAMAK.

then i said at last, "God, let me sleep for a while.." thats when i slept for nearly more than 2 hours?
i woke up at 9pm.

I'm so dead.
How am i going to sleep later on?
How am i going to wake up as early in the morning?
How am i going to show my school work when i'm not even done with them?!

Aish.
This is still so frustrating even now.

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2011-05-05T20:52:00.001+08:00

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2011-05-05T19:16:00.003+08:00

AHHHHHH! I WANT TO RUN AWAY TO KOREA TO HIDE. :(

I almost died today.
But of course i didnt mean that.

I didnt meet any accident also.

I ALMOST GOT A ZERO MARK.. *slap my cheeks*
I'm totally disappointed in myself.
I shouldn't simply keep quiet just because i already did most of the work.
Really stupid.. =_=

Was actually doing the presentation in front of class.
We all thought it was a simple presentation about our work.
So i didn't speak for the whole time.
Aside that, we also the first group to present.

We had a bit of confidence that our work will work well because we had been working on this project just one week before than anyone else.

then 2nd group and other groups went to present.
All the more they present group by group, we felt a bit shocked that we had presented really little, as we didn't talk about on our process when we actually did quite a lot of them, even more than other groups.
So we discussed and had decided to redo our presentation especially me who wanted to speak during the presentation, hoping that our lecturer gave us another chance to do again.
So I started speaking as well (when i don't really have confidence speaking up yet...and i know i'm still timid as ever)

I spoke really slow and stuttered pretty a lot and the lecturer spoke something.
" Finally you spoke. At first, you didn't speak any word at all."
I was like... YAH. FML. =_=

then we finished the presentation.
She praised a lot on it and said that she still wont mark us in the better grade BUT.
" But, the previous presentation, Ivy did not speak at all, so i actually mark her Zero. So since she's speaking for this presentation, i shall mark her for this. But for the rest of you, your marks won't change. Only just for Ivy since she didn't speak at all. Actually your previous presentation was already satisfied enough. And i admire your group because you are all very determined to do again." She stood up and left, without looking at me.

My heart fell. I felt really bad, and i don't know how to face anybody. I was totally blank after that. Even though i was thankful that this 2nd presentation gave me a chance, i was totally disappointed in myself for being this way. I need to reflect, Reflect, REFLECT!

I wanted to say a lot of vulgarities here but i don't think there's any good income if i do so. =_=
So i was completely down, for the whole time.

Then i decided to watch something entertaining during the break to relieve myself.
Lesson starts, but lecturer was not here, so i kept watching.
Until she came, and poked me from my back.
I panicked and went back to work.

Then lecturer ask us to consult her, and i was the first three of the people to consult her. And i felt good enough since i'm one of the few who finish the work early (which is why we can go consult her quickly) Once i finished my consultation with her, i went to think of ideas again on the blank paper, however, she said we can have 20 minutes break. So i thought i should release my stress again by watching the entertaining show(Running Man). Once 20minutes is up, she poked me from the back again.

" What are you doing? You still haven't start anything on the new blank page."
I wanted to say that we just ended our break, how could you possibly expect me to have some work already?! Aish.

I felt super disappointed again. Not because she think i'm lazy. Its BECAUSE SHE WILL HAVE BAD IMPRESSION OF ME FOR THE REST OF THE SEMESTER!! I dislike people to think i'm lazy and "i'm a HI, so i'm special" person!! Besides, she's quite someone who i respect because she's strict like my primary 6 teacher. WHY DO I HAVE TO DESTROY HER IMPRESSION OF ME?!
AISH.

I was really sooo disappointed. Really.

If you read this post, and think i'm overreacting. Its all up to you to think because you are not me!

Today, after i finish school, i met johnson and shared with him on our way home.
Then i went bb station. Went to sushi store to eat.

Someone snatch my food when i just paid for them!
It's steven.. =_=
I was like, " aiya, give me back" with no big reaction.
Steven was like surprised instead.

Then he ordered too.
So we ate together at the store.
I told him, " i always eat here when i feel stress."
LOL.

Besides, i carried really heavy bag. Laptop and books.
Fortunately i got him to carry for me. :)
Then we went to market.
He wanted to buy more chocolates. =_=

Ended up he have to carry them as well.
lol.
i told him, " Who ask you snatch my food and destroy them? Now you deserve this by carrying my heavy bag" LOL.
I know i'm evil, but when i'm in the bad mood, what can i do?!
:(

I need to reflect myself.